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Just a short update, iv been working at the local Saturn Dealership 4 almost 5 months. Im enjoying it and im saving up 4 a laptop and then buying a motorhome.

 

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Well... I moved to Leroy SK as of March 10th been working.. got let go as of April 21st hopefully back to work in humboldt..

 

I'v had many small adventures :) but not alot to do here either.. Watching movies. working out and just relaxing :)

 

Today's been interesting to say the less. Looked at living in a shelter.. ( Not the best idea ) Called the SPCA they will hold my dog for 30 days at no charge.. or more if needed. Got a meeting in 2.5 hours looking at the dorm style apartments Which im hoping is nicer then the shelter Smile I think i got to put the dog down.. he's been sick.. his back legs are given him pain.. and well if i move into the apartments.. I can't have him.. So i think im just going to swallow my pride. put him down.. so he can run around in doggy heaven.. or whereever he runs around.. The hard part.. he's very loyal to me.. So maybe i'll just put him at the SPCA so they'll take care of him for 30 days.. that would give me money to get myself better.. Or maybe it's time to just take care of myself.. Because if i move into the apartments.. I can get th net. and save up for a cavy... I just got to find out whats more important.. Reliable Car.. or keep my sick dog.. I know that answer.. it's just hard to do whats right.. I just got back from the docs.. Im on anti-depressents (spelling) To take the edge off of my mind.. I also am grieving for the loss of my mother and all sorts of other stress.. Tomorrow.. Im going to the Canadain Building to again.. apply for UI to see if that helps. and maybe take a visit to social services to get put on assistance.. Suggests and offer for advice are welcome.. So if i put the dog down.. I might be able to live with another friend.

Yeah well im sick and tired of trying.. I knew this was going to happen... Today my friends dad informed me I got to go.. He's got his sister and her family coming to visit.. and they need the space.. So im no longer able to stay here... So that means I once again for to loss something.. I got to most likely put my dog down.. and moving into a dorm style apartment.. So i can just survive... But i dont want too.. I dont want to put my dog down... I hate life right now.. Im very angrey.. very hurt/upset... Like.. God everytime i take a step.. someone/something pulls the rug from under my feet... Im going to my doctor tomorrow.. Maybe he'lll put me in the hospital.. Maybe i'll have this mental breakdown.. Because i'v been having headachs and everything all the time for the last 3 weeks... Helll.. death looks welcoming right now... Sorry for the vent..